Profile Cheryl Tan 23 May Child of God YCCA-Xxon; Cell-u-lites RPCCC-Spiritual Multiplier Youth Entrepreneurship IG-President Herwishes I want to... join full time(when?) I want to... go mission trips I want to... have more christian books I want to... be the salt and light I want to... graduate with a GPA of 3.0 I want to... get driving license by 2010 I want to... get into the teaching industry I want to... get a Degree in Business Administration, SIM(UB) I want to... get a MacBook/MacBook Pro I want to... get a iphone Daily Bread Tagboard Twitter Twitter Updates Twitter Updates follow me on Twitter Blogger's World littlencouragement XXON Blog RP SIFE Blog Kenneth Toh HuiBing:XXON Jo Quek:XXON Rebecca:XXON Simon:XXON Wanting:XXON RPCCC Webby Every Student.com Irene:RPCCC Grace:RPCCC Deborah:RPCCC Yuki:RPCCC Yvonne:RPCCC Jacq Ong:RPCCC Hazel:RPCCC Jacq Tan:RPCCC Marcus:RPCCC Xinhui:NBSS Bertina:NBSS Baoling:YES! Qiu Yi:YES! Kim:CHC Cheryl:CHC Kelly:CHC Rae:CHC XinYing:CHC Jasmin:CHC Yuling:CHC Vanessa:CHC Sandra:CHC Huimin:RP Sarah:RP Pasts ♥ January 2007 ♥ February 2007 ♥ March 2007 ♥ April 2007 ♥ May 2007 ♥ June 2007 ♥ July 2007 ♥ August 2007 ♥ September 2007 ♥ October 2007 ♥ November 2007 ♥ December 2007 ♥ January 2008 ♥ February 2008 ♥ March 2008 ♥ April 2008 ♥ May 2008 ♥ June 2008 ♥ July 2008 ♥ August 2008 ♥ September 2008 ♥ October 2008 ♥ November 2008 ♥ December 2008 ♥ January 2009 ♥ February 2009 ♥ March 2009 ♥ April 2009 ♥ May 2009 ♥ June 2009 ♥ July 2009 ♥ August 2009 ♥ September 2009 ♥ October 2009 ♥ November 2009 ♥ December 2009 ♥ January 2010 ♥ February 2010 ♥ March 2010 ♥ April 2010 ♥ May 2010 ♥ June 2010

Thursday, December 31, 2009 @8:02 PM ♥ hot title:Ending 2009! METAMORPHOSIS CONFERENCE 2009 WAS A BLAST!!! I went there half expecting and half not expecting… But However… i wrote down 2 expectations and prayed through it… Meeting with God in a brand new way. For God to show me my future direction that He wants me to go in a brand new way!   For the first expectation, i didn’t even know if it was achieved… but surely… i met with God and had returned back to His first love… Praise God! But however the HIGHLIGHT for this camp was my 2nd expectation! for many months i had been wrestling with God about my future calling… FEAR! fear is the word… a lot of what ifs… i kept asking God, what if you this is not my primary purpose, what if my parents say no, what if my family say no, what if I CAN’T RAISE MONTHLY support??? a lot of what ifs… and many more what ifs… despite God replying to all my what ifs… despite Him showing me my calling through His words, through preparing for DGs, through people… still i decide to wrestle with God… i remembering telling my DG mates that at that point of time God only showed me 90% confirmation… though wan teng was telling me that when she went into the ministry with less than 90% confirmation yet God remained faithful… but i told God, “God, i need a 100% confirmation!”… i dunno but i felt that God was telling me yesterday during ministry night that… “cheryl, what other confirmation do you need now???” at the very moment, the speaker had an altar call for those whom God is calling them to full time… i was shivering… my heart was burdened with tears… yet i chose to ask God again, “ARE U SURE U ARE CALLING ME!” At that very moment, God reminded me that… “you just taught your CG last night about obedience… 2 years ago at the very night i called u, u stayed in ignorance… do u still want to continue to stay in your disobedience?” and the speaker said something that pierce through my heart, “God is calling those whom He had tried calling you for years and months!” and the message the speaker gave during the session was exactly the same verse which God had shown me again and again about my calling! I knew at that very moment that i need to go… the moment i went up… the first thing i did wasn’t to THANK GOD THAT HE CALLED ME! BUT THE FIRST THING I DID WAS TO CALL TO HIM IN REPENTANCE… i prayed… “i surrender my all, i apologize for the times that You called me and i continuously tested You again and again…” i prayed the same sentence again and again until there was a breakthrough… finally my burden was lifted up… and soon enough… one of the staff came to pray for me… if im not wrong it was christine… the words she prayed were the exact things that causes my fears to come into full time…   I believe that God had allowed me to end 2009 with a BANG! a great one… and God is called as the Alpha and Omega, Beginning and the End… He who started will end it well too… God who is faithful will walk me through and help me overcome all obstacles! Praise God! Believing Him in all things! With man it’s impossible… with God all things are possible… Fear not because “I AM WHO I AM!” Saturday, December 26, 2009 @6:53 AM ♥ hot title:Merry Christmas Everyone! Best and most RELAXING Christmas ever… No need to even care about… are the new friends gonna come… where are the members… why am i so sleepy… NONONO! Its totally relaxing… enjoyable… Enjoyed the time with my cell group… my crazy friends… my cute little young gals in the church… amazing… I truly thank God for even bring me to YCCA… to Xxon family… it was amazing of how i made one whole big round just to get here… There’s a reason for everything… Even as i enjoy my time with the people around me… im pretty upset at the same time… after yesterday i totally lost my voice… and since i haven’t seen a doctor yet… i told my sister yesterday that i shall just go eat anything and everything before i go see doctor… HAHA… and so… when i was at eddric’s birthday party… i had CURRY,FRIED STUFFS… AND EVEN FRIED DURIAN… HAHA! so i totally have a super sexy voice now… and im gonna just pack up my sat and sun before i have a xiong and away from home META camp on monday… and more than half of my week will be gone next week… i will break camp next thurs… and have watch night cum covenant service on thurs night at 10pm… omg… i pray i dont sleep in svc man… Wednesday, December 23, 2009 @9:47 PM ♥ hot title:Xploring God, Xploding in Passion… Xplo Camp’09 Wow… totally blown away by what God had been doing in camp… He is simply AMAZING… indeed like what Pastor Daniel said… “our prayers had bear its fruit!” I’m extremely glad…   Out of the blue moon… i was my group’s assistant leader… but it was a great experience… thank God for my leader… Ezekiel Ma… and my little COWs in my group… and we are the “cow” group… and so our group name was… “WHAT COW?”… Here goes our group cheer: what cow what cow what cow, what cow what cow what cow What Cow? We are a Christian cow! What Cow? We are a Holy cow! What Cow? We are a Winning cow! MOOOOOoooooooo………   Enough of the FUN part of the camp… now lets talk about the spiritual part… One of my goals for this camp was… randomly… i ask God… where did my passion went???  So my Goal was that to find back the passion i had for God when i was like sec 1/2… i thought that the very passion was to keep on reaching out for God… but… i was wrong… as God revealed that very passion He wanted me to have over the 3nights at desaru… The very first session we had, i was doing powerpoint… and during ministry time… my heart suddenly pumped very first… at first i thought God wanted me to respond to His call… i ponder for awhile… i prayed and wait… i realised it wasn’t but… the urged to pray for people suddenly come to me… God began to tell me the things that i should be praying for, for the gals standing right infront of me… trust me this is the first time im doing what i did… it was scary… i started out praying for one of them… then i sat down… somehow there was a force for me to stand up and pray for another one… and i was fearful to pray for another one… when a thought came to me… “cheryl, who are u to pray for them… u are not a pastor, not even a leader of that church!” but i sense God pushing me further… the Holy Spirit gave me the exact words to pray for the last person… it was very very clear… and i told myself i should just go by faith… and i prayed and speak the prophetic words right to the person… with a very strong conviction… and all i get was confirmation and affirmation… Praise the Lord… But during the second session… i didn’t felt led to pray for anyone at all… but i realised that the reason behind all the fear for prayer was due to some bondages in my heart that i need to deal with the Lord… that very night… i spend almost 30-45mins wrestling with the Lord… it wasn’t a easy process… cox at that very point of my life i knew that i need to surrender everything to the Lord, and allow nothing to hinder my relationship and ministry with the Lord… for my character… the stubbornness… it was very HARD TO LET GO… but i just got to say to God… “I SURRENDER… TAKE ALL OF ME IN EXCHANGE OF ALL OF YOU!” After that night i felt total peace in my heart… i thank God for setting me free… On the very last night… during our fun night… towards the end of the session… Pastor Daniel open it up for a time of ministry… there and then i knew that God had wanted me to be set free on the previous night for a special reason… which is so that God can do a even greater work in and through me… we spent almost 2 hours ministering to people… prayed for many individuals… im happy to see people being set free by God, lives being transformed… and if you allow me to choose… i dont mind having a overnight prayer to prayer for the people… God is amazing… During the thanksgiving session… i begin to reflect on what God has done that i should give thanks to… God really revealed my passion… and affirm me of my gifts… and i should use my gifts wisely for His kingdom purposes… Praise God… He’s a amazing… from the very reason i came to the camp was without any expectation… But at all times… God has His reason for everything… i’m AMAZED!!! Tuesday, December 15, 2009 @6:55 AM ♥ hot title:M.A.D. Mad people like me… wakes up at 5plus every morning for no reason… argggghhhhhhh!!!!!! is this like sleeping disorder??? i can’t find a reason why im waking up so early… can someone tell me why??? it had been like this since last sem week 16 during prep for UT… and i can’t seems to switch my body clock back… it has been like so long… like from week 16+3weeks of holidays+10weeks of lesson… =14 weeks = 3.5 months… crap… this can’t go on… imagine when i grad and i still wake up so early… what what what the crap… ah… But at the same time i enjoyed spending time alone at home to get my work done or do some stupid random things on my lappy… haha… and u will see the dark sky becomes the bright sky… HAHA! this sleeping disorder thing better not happen at desaru… i dont want special sleeping treatments ah… haha… but this is and better happen at meta… cox breakfast and devotion need to be done from 7-8am… like super early… im quite worried for my gals… i scared they can’t wake up ah… HAHA! whatever it is… this coming 3 weeks gonna be so packed… but i try my best to rest and enjoy… HAHA! this week will be time that i catch up with friends, have meeting and plan events, get the necessary thing for desaru, prepare for meta materials. 19th to 22nd will be away for desaru… come back… prepare for xmas… 25th dec –> service, christmas lunch at safra, Eddric’s bdae celebration at 5pm 28th-31st will be away for Metamorphosis 2009… excitement… 1st till 4th Jan – study for UT! There’s so much to do… CRAP!!! Sunday, December 13, 2009 @6:25 AM ♥ hot title:Time is running out… In the next 5 days i just gotta get all my work done… Before i’m off for desaru next sat… im starting to feel the lack of sleep experience… crap… once again its back to me… and this shall not be made known to est and wt… if nt they will force me to sleep in desaru… work to be done in the next 5 days: get christmas gift ready (sec sch cliques, i might not have brought something from your wishlist due to the lack of time i have for shopping, however i still hope u like them) clear my room for friday’s christmas celebration study for UT Meeting and planning for upcoming IG activity Meta camp’s preparations (i feel that there’s alot to do, but im excited and lazy all at the same time) Schedule for Next week: Sunday->church, study UT, Prepare for meta materials, hospital? Monday->sch as usual, UT after school Tuesday->swimming in the morning, sakura for lunch? Wednesday->meeting with victor and qy over lunch Thursday->watch some show at trcc Friday->prepare meta materials again Saturday->Off to Desaru Btw, some of us had a great time at karen’s place yesterday… once again… Happy 21st Blessed Birthday to KAREN LOH!!! Friday, December 11, 2009 @7:44 AM ♥ hot title:After much procrastination… After much procrastination i finally did it man… HAHA! I went swimming yesterday… and then went ishi mura for dinner then to ntuc and also to cold storage then to my hse there de ntuc also… yesterday’s dinner was yum yum… wait till our dear zhang yun upload the pictures… But we too have small little fun with the christmas deco at Safra:)   Tuesday, December 08, 2009 @12:37 PM ♥ hot title:My Christmas Wish! From my HEART: I wish that complete healing will upon my grandma, and no more emotional problems that she have to face, that she will be happy and start to eat regularly! I wish that by the end of the 12th day of Christmas… my FYP will complete and that i can care-less about everything… I wish that i will graduate with reasonable results… at least a 2.5… I wish that i will enjoy Youth camp next week… I wish Meta will be life changing and that God will start His directions for me clearer… From my DESIRES: I wish for a MacBook… anyone kind enough… haha… I wish for more bags… as usual… I wish for more CASH & VOUCHERS… I wish for more Christian Books and a NEW BIBLE! I wish for a thick notebook without lines! I wish for that RED LEATHER PLANNER from POPULAR! I wish for anything that you think that i will like… I DON’T MIND MORE PIGLETS! @6:43 AM ♥ hot title:Out Of A Sudden! Out of a sudden i realise its gonna be such a busy week… till i need to ask myself… “Do i have the time to visit ah ma this week?” Please kill me for my busyness this week… and i still have UT to study for… ALAMAK! SEE I HAVE SO MANY THINGS ON HAND… TIME CONSUMING… Friends don’t get me wrong… meet ups and catch ups are great and i love it a lot… i don’t mind having more but not so many a week… 07 Dec, Mon – Dinner with Karen, Grace and Madel 08 Dec, Tue – CGL, ACGL Briefing at SCCC Office @ 630pm 09 Dec, Wed – DG with Grace, then meet Est to pass her something at night 10 Dec, Thurs – Senior DG outing, Oops… can’t go for church prayer again… 11 Dec, Fri – CG at 730pm 12 Dec, Sat – Youth Prayer @ 9am, Karen’s 21st Party @ 3pm 13 Dec, Sun – Service Oh my goodness… so packed week ahead… i have fyp to complete… i have UT to study… having a paper on my less day of sch this coming monday… Oops! But i’m looking forward to next week… its holiday… plus sec sch cliques xmas celebration… then Youth Camp… then after Youth Camp will be Christmas… after Christmas will be Meta… After meta i will say welcome 2010… speaking of welcoming 2010… we are having covenant service in church on the 31st from 10pm to 12mn… i think my face will be super “cui” since i will only break camp that afternoon…  Saturday, December 05, 2009 @8:34 AM ♥ hot title:Excitement… “I’M FULL OF EXCITEMENT!” hahahaha… im very excited to go CHINA now… looking forward to the 3 weeks in March… woots… words cannot be describe… :P my heart is pumping so heart… My first choice: EA, 2nd Choice: Taiwan, 3rd Choice: Thailand… i dunno i just feel that end of the day the 2nd/3rd choice is just put for fun, put for the sake of putting… i got not much feel for that… probably its just my own self earthly desire… but EA! i’m very very sure its from the Lord… it had been pumping in my heart way head in the start of 2009… just like how God pump my heart to go to consider full-time! HAHA! So have you sign yourself up for Gen12ii… its gonna be a great experience.. :) Log on to http://gen12ii.crusade.sg and check it out… Btw… some BAD WATER DROWN MY BOOKS YESTERDAY! very angry! its all WET AND HEAVY!!! ARGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!